I'm sort of in the middle of an "experiment" (read: test) — when Opportunity and I first decided to start back seeing each other (and I mean that in the literal visual sense, nothing more), I told him I would be cool with that so long as I wasn't initiating all the interactions. Well guess what's happening? He's still regressing back into a state of indifference and disrespect and I'm doing all the damn work. Shit, he stood me up on Sunday and hasn't called since to even say why or what's going on. I'd call, but why? I'd only be angry, he would foolishly not know why, and furthermore, wouldn't even care that he got me angry! Utterly pointless.

Meanwhile, I'm here horny as a toad and the man that I'm in love with won't have sex with me although he claims that he cares about me and finds me attractive. What kind of sense does that make? What guy do you know that wouldn't want to take a roll in the hay with a willing partner whenever they wanted to? Yet again, I've invested in an empty shell of a human being with no emotion or feeling — just pretty words, broken promises, sandpaper touches and goddamned lies.

Man, I hope he's reading this.