I’m sort of in the middle of an “experiment” (read: test) — when Opportunity and I first decided to start back seeing each other (and I mean that in the literal visual sense, nothing more), I told him I would be cool with that so long as I wasn’t initiating all the interactions. Well guess what’s happening? He’s still regressing back into a state of indifference and disrespect and I’m doing all the damn work. Shit, he stood me up on Sunday and hasn’t called since to even say why or what’s going on. I’d call, but why? I’d only be angry, he would foolishly not know why, and furthermore, wouldn’t even care that he got me angry! Utterly pointless.
Meanwhile, I’m here horny as a toad and the man that I’m in love with won’t have sex with me although he claims that he cares about me and finds me attractive. What kind of sense does that make? What guy do you know that wouldn’t want to take a roll in the hay with a willing partner whenever they wanted to? Yet again, I’ve invested in an empty shell of a human being with no emotion or feeling — just pretty words, broken promises, sandpaper touches and goddamned lies.
Man, I hope he’s reading this.
My love life became infinitely better when I realized how simple and uncomplicated the how thing really is. Really, Karsh, there’s no interpretation or guess work necessary. If someone really likes and respects you, you’ll know because you feel good about your interactions. If you feel like shit, depressed, wondering, constantly hurt and confused, it’s not worth your effort or time. Pay no attention whatsoever to what a man says, because that really doesn’t mean anything; it’s all in his actions, baby. Good luck.
yeah i hope he’s reading this too. and karsh i hope YOU are reading and digesting this as well. stop being so reactive and DO SOMETHING! if he is treating you so bad stop trying to be with him! it just isn’t working- this was supposed to be a new year for you, stop wasting time on 2005 bullshit, leave opportunity in the past where he belongs- STOP LETTING MEN TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOU!!!
Whew…
that was reality check and i am through!!!
Yeh, I’m reading this. Sandpaper touches? Ouch! All I can say is that must make me one fine grit.
Take a deep breath here. You already have your answers. In fact, you just wrote them out line by line. This is hard, but, we must believe what people tell us about themselves through their words and actions. We’re not life’s editors. That, my friend, is God’s work. oooooooooh my lawd!
But then…you already knew this before you decided to give him another go. I know how frustrating it is but stop banging your head against a brick wall and find the person who is right for you. He obviously isn’t ready for what you have to offer.
No lecture from me..take it as a clue and move on already.
Sucks man, but been there before. When you’re truly TIRED you’ll let it go. Stay up.