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Posted on 05/26/08 @ 9:55 pm
I was going to make this into a blogcast, but I fired up Audacity, sat down to start speaking…and didn't want to do so. Eh, it happens, I guess. Where were we? Oh yes — work. In a surprising turn of events, most of the events of the last post have all but disappeared. The whole leaving-in-six-months rumor? Squashed. Director of design position with the hottie from the startup? Folded. Senior webmaster position with the non-profit? Still open, but I got some signs it would not be a good move. On top of these things, I've actually started getting recognized for my design work at Big Company, Inc., including a huge testimonial from a customer that actually started crying upon viewing the site. It's nice to be recognized, particularly at a place that prides itself on not recognizing talent. But you know how it goes — when one thing evens out, something else becomes a little off kilter. In this case, it would be…the luuuuuuuuuv life. Granted, I am not in an all-fire rush to get into another relationship, but here's the thing: after Opportunity, it took me a while to get to a point where I was mostly fine with being single. Sure, there would be moments where I'd want someone around, but on the whole, I was OK with it. And now, after three months of being in a great relationship, getting dumped, then spending two months getting over it (we're "friends" now, even though most of our conversations end in arguments), I find myself back in the dreaded position of trying to date in Atlanta. (By corollary, this could extend to any major metropolitan area, and I'm sure Atlanta's faults are present everywhere.) Warning: There are links to some very NSFW images after this point, and I'm not responsible for whatever trauma (whether momentary or permanent) results from viewing these, be it vomiting, expulsion of whatever you're drinking all over your monitor, or screaming like a schoolgirl. Again, you've been warned. Filed under: Love in the Life Comments: 13 Comments |
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Posted on 04/30/08 @ 11:19 pm
I'm about ready for 2008 to be over, and it hasn't even reached the halfway point. When y'all last left the train wreck that is Karsh in '08, Gaara and I just broke up. And at the beginning, things were peachy. We were still chatting on the phone every day and talking it up like a break-up never happened. In private though, I didn't take it so well. As a matter of fact, I didn't take it well at all. And perhaps the reason I didn't take it well was because the break-up was fairly amicable. I'm more used to the explosion which results from my usual splits. This one was highly unusual. And the adjustment for me was to withdraw from others and basically throw myself into work and school. And you know, for a while, it worked. I felt like I was on the mend and things would be cool if perhaps I would meet my ex-boyfriend-turned-acquaintance for a night out. Well…it didn't. Copious amounts of alcohol were imbibed, I ranted off some things I don't even remember while in my mixed drink induced stupor, and basically squashed the friendship. It was a bit of a rookie move, I admit. But I owned up to my shit, because I haven't gotten that smashed in a good long while. And frankly, for reasons I won't go into here, what's done has been done, and the time for arguments and shit is over. Case motherfuckin' closed. Of course, there's more shit going on besides Gaara, so a small part of me is glad that I have one less stressor so a brotha can get back to some semblance of normalcy. And many other things have happened which I haven't went into yet, like how work is going, Micro-Manager's going-away party, my impending graduation, and the search for fulfillment. That's right…Micro-Manager has left the building. I'll tell you about these things and more, plus your five-day forecast, after these messages. Filed under: Love in the Life and Personal Comments: 4 Comments |
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Posted on 03/24/08 @ 6:06 am
Che/Gaara and I broke up. No details, and nothing I choose to discuss right now. Let's just keep it moving. Filed under: Love in the Life and Personal Comments: Comments Off |
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Posted on 03/17/08 @ 6:20 am
While the city too busy to hate was recovering from being hit by an F2 tornado, I was in the middle of my own storm…of emotions, that is. After about three months of dating, talking, flirting, kissing (and other things), I dropped a hard ILY on my boyfriend (heretofore known as Che, but will now be known as Gaara) as we lay in bed Saturday night. Was it too soon? We talked about it a bit the next morning…and a little that afternoon…and that night. What happens when you tell someone you've been dating that you love them…and they don't return it? I should preface this by saying that our relationship is great and stable enough where this won't shake us to our core. And when I dropped it to him, I honestly wasn't expecting a response (mainly because when I've said it in the past to exes, it wasn't returned). My expression wasn't a solicitation, but something I've been thinking about, analyzing, and soul searching about for weeks. I've realized through several relationships that love is more than just one thing and can be expressed in more than one way. But usually when it comes to relationships, that singular phrase…it's killer. How can you respond to that if you really like the person, but it hasn't matured into love? "OK." (Lame.) I sort of awkwardly suggested the phrase "I care deeply about your safety and well-being." Wordy, but it doesn't quite wrap things into that succinct package of l-o-v-e. So…any suggestions? I really know and feel he's the real deal, but this is a situation in which I need some input. Technorati Tags: boyfriend, love, relationship, i love you, ILY Filed under: Love in the Life Comments: 4 Comments |
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Posted on 01/01/08 @ 11:44 pm
The past 96 hours have more than made up for all the fuckery which 2007 threw at me. And it's all thanks to Che. Real talk: ever since Opportunity took himself out of the picture, rebounding has been slow and mainly ineffectual. Luckily, I've had work and personal projects like the Black Weblog Awards to throw myself into in order to assuage the guilt of the split and refocus my thoughts. You know…a diversion tactic. For the most part, it's worked…but given the double whammy of getting laid off and the identity theft, I've now had time to revisit that soft spot. Then again, there's not that many prospects in the field, if you know what I mean. So one night while I'm searching for jobs on Atlanta Craigslist, I decide to navigate on over to the "Men Seeking Men" section just to see what's available. Now, I know what you're thinking…Atlanta Craigslist? Well, it's very light in terms of commitment. There's no signing up for a profile, constraining your thoughts to 450 characters or less or waiting until pictures are approved to post them. Then again, that's both good and bad since it can attract anyone from the criminally insane to the Hunchback of Notre Dame. But finding great ads are like searching for a needle in a haystack. And it was just my luck that I pricked myself on a needle of an ad. Che. Filed under: Love in the Life Comments: 10 Comments |
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Name's Karsh. 27. Country-born, city-raised, 
