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Posted on 03/24/08 @ 6:06 am
Che/Gaara and I broke up. No details, and nothing I choose to discuss right now. Let's just keep it moving. Filed under: Love in the Life and Personal Comments: Comments Off |
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Posted on 03/17/08 @ 6:20 am
While the city too busy to hate was recovering from being hit by an F2 tornado, I was in the middle of my own storm…of emotions, that is. After about three months of dating, talking, flirting, kissing (and other things), I dropped a hard ILY on my boyfriend (heretofore known as Che, but will now be known as Gaara) as we lay in bed Saturday night. Was it too soon? We talked about it a bit the next morning…and a little that afternoon…and that night. What happens when you tell someone you've been dating that you love them…and they don't return it? I should preface this by saying that our relationship is great and stable enough where this won't shake us to our core. And when I dropped it to him, I honestly wasn't expecting a response (mainly because when I've said it in the past to exes, it wasn't returned). My expression wasn't a solicitation, but something I've been thinking about, analyzing, and soul searching about for weeks. I've realized through several relationships that love is more than just one thing and can be expressed in more than one way. But usually when it comes to relationships, that singular phrase…it's killer. How can you respond to that if you really like the person, but it hasn't matured into love? "OK." (Lame.) I sort of awkwardly suggested the phrase "I care deeply about your safety and well-being." Wordy, but it doesn't quite wrap things into that succinct package of l-o-v-e. So…any suggestions? I really know and feel he's the real deal, but this is a situation in which I need some input. Technorati Tags: boyfriend, love, relationship, i love you, ILY Filed under: Love in the Life Comments: 4 Comments |
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Posted on 01/01/08 @ 11:44 pm
The past 96 hours have more than made up for all the fuckery which 2007 threw at me. And it's all thanks to Che. Real talk: ever since Opportunity took himself out of the picture, rebounding has been slow and mainly ineffectual. Luckily, I've had work and personal projects like the Black Weblog Awards to throw myself into in order to assuage the guilt of the split and refocus my thoughts. You know…a diversion tactic. For the most part, it's worked…but given the double whammy of getting laid off and the identity theft, I've now had time to revisit that soft spot. Then again, there's not that many prospects in the field, if you know what I mean. So one night while I'm searching for jobs on Atlanta Craigslist, I decide to navigate on over to the "Men Seeking Men" section just to see what's available. Now, I know what you're thinking…Atlanta Craigslist? Well, it's very light in terms of commitment. There's no signing up for a profile, constraining your thoughts to 450 characters or less or waiting until pictures are approved to post them. Then again, that's both good and bad since it can attract anyone from the criminally insane to the Hunchback of Notre Dame. But finding great ads are like searching for a needle in a haystack. And it was just my luck that I pricked myself on a needle of an ad. Che. Filed under: Love in the Life Comments: 10 Comments |
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Posted on 12/20/07 @ 10:04 am
I stopped dating as soon as I realized I could spend my time doing better things…like taking a shit or picking my nose. Sure, it's less hygienic, but at least you get a satisfying end after your efforts. A few months ago, I decided to enroll in a few online dating services hoping to meet The Future Mr. Karsh — or at least my next decent lay. Now you have to understand that this was a fairly large step for me: to be honest, while Opportunity is nothing more to me than a regretful memory, I still relish those good times in a relationship that can occur when the attraction is on an even keel. Every relationship has them — some longer than others; those moments of bliss when you realize how lucky you are to have them, and you know the feeling's mutual. Well ever since that break, I've been auditioning guys and none have gotten the role. Aside from McQuickie and Hey Mr. DJ!, that's all the action I've had romantically in the past two years. So I felt it was time to change that. Filed under: Love in the Life Comments: 6 Comments |
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Posted on 07/01/07 @ 6:44 pm
It ain't the Law of Attraction, and Rhonda Byrne damn sure didn't discover it. For you see, I am the secret. At least when it comes to relationships. I'm not getting any younger. And of course, I'm thinking about what I want to change in my life since I'm approaching 30 and really want to get things in order. You know…finances, living conditions…and relationships. I was thinking the other day about my past relationships and how essentially, I was never really with them, in the actual two-people-one-feeling type of way. They had their friends and their family and the things they did with them, and then separate from that, there was me. With each of them, I was never integrated into their lives in a way that would have gotten me to know more about them. I was just Mr. One-on-One. Opportunity and Hey Mr. DJ were perhaps the biggest offenders in this case. I was just the sideline ho. Now when I was younger, that was OK. I was doing my own thing and they did theirs and never the 'twain did meet. But now that I'm older and all these feelings and shit start getting involved. Well…I don't want to be isolated like that. And I certainly don't want to be with someone who'd be ashamed to introduce me to the people in their lives, romantic relationship or otherwise. I mean, who would deny themselves of the Karsh experience willingly? It's their loss, y'know? The flipside of that, though, is wondering what it is about me that'd want them to do that in the first place. My intelligence? My humor? My looks? My race? I'm not in the closet, but I'm not doing rhythmic gymnastics with the rainbow flag either. Hell, it could be a combination of all those factors. For The Ex, he was ashamed to be seen with me in public. For The Why, he was afraid his fianceé would find out. And for the others? Who the hell knows. So I ask…how many of you out there are keeping someone a secret for fear of what someone else might think? Filed under: Love in the Life and Personal Comments: 3 Comments |
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Name's Karsh. 27. Country-born, city-raised, 
